Christians, like everyone else, are obsessed with sex. This I can understand. The hormones in our bodies responsible for the sex drive are powerful indeed. What I don’t understand is why God should be so obsessed with it too. Few things bring Christians out in greater numbers than a gay rights march, or any group promoting sexual behavior that they do not approve of. And judging by the signs and banners that Christians boisterously parade during these rallies, nothing interests God so much as humans having sex.
There was I time I could believe this–before I had sex. As a young college student with raging hormones and a strict religious injunction to abstain from all physical and mental activities pertaining to sex, I was very much aware of how one could be so obsessed with it. Since I wasn’t planning on getting married any time soon, sex was completely off-limits to me. So naturally, I could think of little else. It was a daily struggle to fight off thoughts of sex. Yet the more I disallowed them, the more they would come to mind. It really did seem like there were demons in my head, ready to pounce anytime I let my mind wander. So it was easy for me to join in this Christian condemnation of sex. It justified my struggle, and gave me a platform from which to hurl my indignation at the weaknesses of my own will. And that is the reason I do not believe that God’s attitudes toward sex would be the same as Christians’. All the arguments Christians use against sexual practices that they do not approve of are couched in emotion, suppressed desires, and unsound reasoning. I do not believe God’s attitudes toward sex would be driven by such human foibles. Take homosexuality, for example.
Christians believe that your sexual preference is a choice, that somehow you can choose to be gay or straight. This is a necessary assumption, for how can being gay be a sin unless it is something that can be chosen? That is why there is so much Christian opposition against the notion that you can be born gay, or that the choice is somehow out of your control. That would remove the activity from the realm of choice. And sin by definition is a choice to disobey God, so any activity that cannot be chosen loses its ability to be classified as a sin. Since being gay is a sin, then it must be a choice. What is Holy Vible
Yet it doesn’t take much self-awareness to see that this cannot be true. For example, most of the people reading this are probably straight. So to the straight folks, here is a simple question to ask yourself: did you choose to be straight? In other words, was there a time in your life that you said,
“You know, I could go either way. But I think I’ll choose to be attracted to the opposite sex?”
And if you really are straight (and not bisexual–we’ll get to that later), the answer has to be “no.” I can ask myself that question. Did I choose to be straight? Could I ever be attracted to a man? The answer is no. In fact, you can put a gun to my head, and demand that I be sexually aroused by the sight of a naked man. I cannot. Conversely, you can demand that I not be aroused by the sight of a beautiful woman. Still, I cannot. So what does this tell me? It tells me that my sexual preference is not my choice! It is a part of me that I cannot control, that I cannot change. Therefore if my sexual preference is not a choice, how can I expect that it be a choice for a homosexual? The very fact that a person can be attracted to someone of the same sex, shows that they are fundamentally different from me. They do not merely choose to do something that I do not, rather they do something that I can not. So wherever it comes from–be it birth, or behavior learned in early childhood–the reality is that sexual preference is given to us. We cannot choose it. Unless, of course, we are bisexual. In fact, the only way the Christian argument can work is if God created us all bisexual, for only then can sexual preference truly be a choice.
Another argument Christians use against having premarital sex is the threat of contracting HIV. I remember my church pastor asking a doctor in our congregation to give a sermon on AIDS one Sunday morning. This was in the early eighties, when the AIDS epidemic was just beginning to get national attention. He told us a little bit about what AIDS was, and how it affected the human body, and how it was transmitted. He also told us where he believed that it came from–you guessed it–God. It was God’s punishment, he said, for fornication. Why it didn’t appear centuries ago, or why it also infected babies, no one asked. Still, it was just one more reason to not have premarital sex.
Now AIDS and sexually transmitted diseases are medical problems, not spiritual ones. I fully expect we will find cures or vaccines for sexually transmitted diseases. Indeed many of the treatments we have today are already far beyond what we had 20 years ago. So one day this will cease to be an issue, and it will no longer be a legitimate reason against having sex. So would God really base his reasons for not allowing premarital sex on such a specious argument as this? Sounds more like the product of humans with an agenda, rather than the all-encompassing wisdom of God.
Even Christians must admit that premarital sex can occur where partners do not transmit diseases to eachother, and do not get eachother pregnant. With proper safety precautions, such problems can be avoided. And as medical science progresses, such risks may one day be all but eliminated. So in the end there is only one argument left: God doesn’t want us to have premarital sex because it somehow isn’t good for us spiritually.
This reminds me of a show I saw a few times on a Christian cable channel, where Christian author Josh McDowell lectured young people about why premarital sex was wrong. He had these kids convinced that if they had sex before marriage, it would somehow spoil or taint the relationship they eventually had with a spouse. Again, as a young Christian man who had never had sex, I believed this kind of stuff wholeheartedly. It validated my abstinence, and made me believe that it was worthwhile. But the charade can only last so long. Sooner or later, reality creeps in. Now that I have experienced sex from both sides, I can say that for me, at least, it was not at all like that. What difference does my experience make? Well, practically, not much. There are exceptions to every rule, and I may just be an exception. But spiritually, it makes all the difference in the world. For if what God says is true, then it must be true for all people. It’s like a balloon. Find one small hole, and it cannot hold any air. So if it’s true that premarital sex damages a person spiritually, them it must have damaged me. Lets see if it did.
I was a Christian until age 22. During this time I never had sex. I only believed in sex after marriage. So as a chaste young man, adhering to upstanding Christian values, how did I feel inside? Well, I felt like there was a war going on. I was obsessed with sex. In college I had a job delivering pizza, and sometimes we made deliveries to adult bookstores and massage parlors. I remember feeling a guilty excitement every time I got one of those calls, because I knew that for a brief moment, I could legitimately enter a world that was otherwise off limits to me. I remember nervously counting change in an adult book store, while trying to keep my eyes off the the naked women on the magazine and video covers. Yet more than anything in the world, I wanted to look. So while walking out, I would cast a few furtive glances around the store. What I saw obsessed me for days. Over and over I would replay in my mind the images of the women I saw on the covers, knowing that I shouldn’t, yet wanting to so badly. My mind and soul were a battlezone of suppressed desire and futile determination. And then there was always the guilt. Guilt that would obsess me, guilt like acid in my heart. Yes, I knew that as a Christian, God forgave me, but I also knew that I would do it again. And Sunday morning sermons about how every time we sinned, it was like driving another nail into Jesus’ wrist, didn’t help matters either.
That was my legacy of abstinence, and I have no doubt that if it had continued, it would have only become worse. For what Christians seem to forget is the psychology of the human mind. I cannot believe that God would be so ignorant. Unlike Christians, I do not believe that God would create us with such a strong desire to explore sex, and then condemn us when we do. As with all things, sexual desires must be acted on responsibly and with restraint. But to forbid any action whatsoever does no one any good. Either you force people to marry just to have sex, or you end up with people like me, for whom sex became a constant source of guilt and self-loathing.
Today, sex for me is something that is good, and something that is fun. And it is something that I am free to engage in, although I would rather do it with someone I love. Sex no longer obsesses me. It is no longer a source of guilt and shame. Rather than damaging me, freedom to have sex has freed my spirit from obsessing over it, and allowed me to enjoy it as I expect God intended his creatures to do. Now, many years later, I have experienced life from the other side, and believe me, sex is much better than abstinence. And unlike what my Sunday school teachers taught me, having had casual sex did not diminish my experience with someone I truly loved. In fact, it enhanced it, for by the time I met this person, I was much more relaxed and fun than I was my first time. And my previous encounters only served to highlight what an amazing woman she truly was.
There is sex, and there is love. You can have good sex without love. You can have love without good sex. And you can have fabulous sex with someone you love deeply. But these are all things in life that we cannot totally control. It is entirely possible to go through life without finding true love. And it is also possible to find love, but not great sex. I guess the point is this: whether or not you choose to have sex before marriage is not important. What is important is that you face your sexual needs honestly, and in a healthy and open way. No one can predict how things will turn out for each individual, just like no one can predict life. And as in life, irresponsible behavior, as well as bad luck, can spell disaster, regardless of your sexual choices. All you can do is give it your best shot, and avail yourself of all the information at hand in making your decisions. What definitely does not work is suppression and guilt. At worst it can drive you crazy. At best you will miss out on a lot of the beauty that life sends your way. Either way, I do not believe that God means for us to treat His gift of sex this way. Life holds enough pain and ugliness. There is no need to make sex ugly too.
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